- but it has been a long time since I last posted anything on here. Nearly three weeks. Not as bad as some previous absences - I think while MJ was staying with Mother and me I posted approximately twice in six months - but still pretty darn tardy of me, wouldn't you say?
.....So! What have I been doing I hear (both of) you ask?
Well, when I think about it, not all that much.
Not that I have been sat doing nothing all day, you understand (and I hasten to add), and twiddling my thumbs. Oh no, I've been busy doing the things that normally keep me busy - ...work, dog, family, friends, errands, choir, household chores, reading, writing, watching stuff on YouTube while I pretend to write, helping Mother, curling up and feeling sorry for myself because allergy season has started again and I've been feeling utterly terrible, sewing (rather a lot of sewing, actually; I've had three pigs to make at short notice, not to mention an elephant for The Great Aunt's birthday and a doll dressed up like a scientist)... - but (other than the extra sewing) nothing much more than that.
I just haven't felt much like writing on here for a bit, I guess..
And now I'm here, and I feel like talking, and can't think of a thing to say.
Which is helpful.
Perhaps it's because I've been feeling ill, and that is all it is.
Because I really have, and still do. It's been building up for days, and now seems to have reached a nice high plateau of "please, someone/something make it stop!".
Y'know, I've noticed over the years - and this really irritates me - that people who are allergy free have no concept whatsoever of how bad this can get; they really haven't. Allergy sufferers are often maligned and jested about - lightheartedly or not - and portrayed as wimps for moaning about what - to them - seems to be a mild case of the sniffles.
It's "just allergies!", they say. It's "only hayfever!" they hoot. As though we are exaggerating for effect, or something. They truly appear to assume that suffering from allergies is the equivalent of sniffing a bit with the odd sneeze and itch to the eyes thrown in, and it doesn't ever get any worse than that. It simply doesn't seem to be understood that what actually happens is you feel one teeny tiny step away from having the flu - real flu, that is; not the 'I-have-a-bad-cold-and-need/want-to-stay-home-from-work' type of flu that people who haven't experienced proper flu claim is flu - pretty much all the time (except for the times when it takes the teeny tiny step into flu feeling territory) for however long it happens to be that whatever you are allergic to is doing all of its growing and pollinating.
Add 'trigger' asthma in - like I have - and on some days you end up feeling even worse than that.
Add in being allergic to several kinds of pollen that appear all at once - also like me! See how special I am? I have both asthma AND multiple allergies at the same time! Sometimes my specialness makes me so giddy that I might just throw up! - and you feel very very crap indeed.
Oh, and to make matters worse; one of my bigger allergies is caused by grass (y'know, that green stuff that grows and pollinates from around march to October; that stuff).
And to really put the tin hat on it; I work in a place that sells a large variety of plants.
.....Including grass (clever, eh?).....
=SIGHS=
Anyway, the assumption irritates me, a lot.
And, just in case you hadn't noticed; right now, I'm feeling very, very crap indeed.
Can you tell?
(I hide it well, after all)
Alice x
P.S. I know you must be fed up with the moaning by now, but meh =shrugs= t'is my Blog, so:
Also, I keep sneezing (you know the kind on television after somebody has snorted pepper, and you think; fake! nobody can sneeze that many times in that space of time? It's just like that).
.....Since sitting down this afternoon - once I got home from work and all my other chores were done - I've wiped off my computer screen so many times while I finished The Great Aunt's birthday elephant, listening as I was to Pentatonix sing their hearts out as I did so (I do love YouTube), and then enjoyed two new episodes of The Big Bang Theory, that I've actually lost count.
.....And I know that that is gross and horrid - okay? - but there are only so many tissues a girl can go through, no matter how soft, before her nose feels as though it is on fire and she just wants to bury her head in her hands (which are shaking madly due to her being forced to use her inhaler 5 times today already just to make it through her shift without passing out) and cry.
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