...and not altogether pleasant week and a half or so. Not that pleasant things didn't happen, because they did. I'm just in a bit of a dark cave right now (as my mother compassionately put it last night). I can see daylight, and keep trying to walk towards it, and I nearly succeed, but then all of a sudden all the bad thoughts will rush in and start shouting at me and I will have a panic attack and start crying and then I'm back where I started again.
All this is perfectly normal. I keep being told that. Perfectly normal. Perfectly natural.
.....Great.
Doesn't make it suck any less.
Anyway. Today has been a better, closer to the daylight kind of day. I feel OK. Level. Calm. Stable.
I stay like that as long as I am too distracted to think.
Which is probably the reason why, after a hard shift at work, I felt the desperate urge after a brief sit down to not only do the quick vacuume and wipe round through the house I had planned, but also to then drag the cooker out and clean behind that as well (for the first time in...when did we move here?...in five years). Oh, and clean the inside and outside of the fridge.
=shrugs=
Whatever works.
Anyway, that is not what I came online to share (though, kitchen cleaner than it has ever been: yay!). What I wanted to do was to repeat this quote I found online while looking for something else:
"Beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. It just so happens that I have more beauty to go around."
Cool, eh?
As someone who is aiming to lose weight*, but not to be anything remotely near 'thin', I like that.
I like that a lot.
Alice x
* 3lbs so far. Not at all bad considering my average portion size.
.....2 stone 11lbs to go. =sigh=.....
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